I have always been a Paranoid Polly (my own personal reference) when it comes to, in all honesty, the majority of my life.
So when I was awoken in the middle of the night mid-June by a nightmare which made me force myself to wake up and walk around my room before I could even attempt reentry to dreamland, I was shocked by how it would not lessen its grip on me once my head hit the pillow once more.
I must confess that I am an avid dreamer with nightmares which have left me screaming in my sleep. I have often been able to cope, at first with medication and second with a form of lucid dreaming which has aided in relieving some of the tension of the horrors I experience eyes closed. If I cannot gain control sometimes I find myself changing the parameters of the story in my waking hours.
Back to laying with my eyes closed post nightmare, my conscious brain not allowing us to sleep in case we end up where we had just recently been, a part of my brain whispered: “This would make a great story.”
For the rest of the night, I constantly had scenes blazing their way through my mind forcing me to pick up my phone and write down them down. After the first one, I hoped it would alleviate the slight terror which had gripped me but for the next few hours, I kept returning to my phone till I finally had to start my day.
I decided to place all the scenes in a Google Doc and found I had written 1500 words in the span of the early hours. After having accomplished this, as I was currently writing a sweet Christmas story to try and rid myself from the writer’s block which had held me in its clutches since October 2019, I thought I could leave it there.
Alas, I was wrong. By the Saturday of the same week, the first line of my story had come to me and I just decided if I wrote it down it would finally declutch itself from me. Since that day I have written just over 82,000 words (finishing my first draft) and it has both thrilled me and terrified me all in one go.
So is there a moral to this blog post you ask literary lovelies? And the answer is NO! I just needed to share with you my current trial and tribulations I find in the clutches of a new novel idea and with characters who appear to know exactly what they are up to. I have a mantra: But I am the author! It is a power struggle.
I hope this post finds you well! My fellow writers tell me about your current writing endeavours? My fellow readers lets chat about your current read!
Postscript: I have been obsessed with Regency romance this summer! Is there a genre which has you in its clutches?